Feelings?

I wanted to tell you
What you do to me
You tear me apart
And you make me see
That love isn't just a word
Like I've been shown before
And when I think about you
I want to be with you more
My words escape me when we talk
I get nervous and choke up
I want to whisper "I love you"
Way before we hang up
I can't wait until we're together
But I can't bear the thought as well
Because when you finally leave again
My life is going to feel like hell
You tell me that you love me
Like so many others before
But this time
I believe you
But I didn't with them before
I have a scar that has my ex's name
But that doesn't matter now
Cause in a few years from now
That useless scar will fade
And all I will have left
Are the memories of you and I
Frozen in an endless time
I told you I love you
And that's not a lie