One of the Untitled

I’m so lost and confused
I don’t know what to do
Everything I’ve ever known is running from me
All the people I adore started slipping away
And I feel like I’m losing it again

I can’t stay out of trouble
And my dad is like the warden
Always catching me and adding on time
To my probation, my sentence
And I don’t know how to stop
Or even how this all got started

And I’m crawling up the walls
And digging my teeth into the skin
Of a new day where everything is always the same
I’m so tired of this nothing I have left to my name
No matter what I do I keep going insane

I said I was sorry
So many times that I don’t mean the words when I say ‘em every day
And to Wendy and Rozanna
Sorry is just a word to me now more than ever
But I mean it when I say
I never wanted to hurt you
I never wanted it this way
But I’m so full of **** that it doesn’t mean much to you anyway

God up above you know I’ll always follow You
No matter what I do, in the end I’m still always with You
And sometimes I think that being your child is what got me into this
It just takes a while for me to realize that it’s no ones’ fault but my own
But I can’t tell myself otherwise all of the time

And to all of my family and all of my friends
I love you
You’re the best things to ever have
Stumbled upon me
And I hate to see you sad
I’d kill a million people just to see you happy
But I’m not a murderer
So when I’m around I bet you’re not happy
To see me, but you know it isn’t my fault
Its in my blood, it just takes a while to resolve

Now take that gun out of your hand
Don’t point that at your head
Move the razor away from your arm, I couldn’t bear it if you were dead
Don’t kill yourself, no, not while I’m around
Not ever, ‘cause you can turn yourself around
It’s easy once you set your mind to it, I’ve done it
Now I’m done with it, though, ‘Cause I just keep turning back
But I don’t want to, I wanna be good for a while
And maybe next time you see me…
You’ll greet me with a smile
‘Cause I changed for you, and its all for you
And I love you
You better know it

And I’m thankful I found you in time
I love it
I can make an apology that rhymes
Just for you
So goodnight
I’ll see you one day soon
Till then, sleep tight